December 27, 2008 at 8:05 pm 14 comments

i have been thinking i relate a little to the wise men lately.  they know something amazing is happening but the details get a bit blurry.  they know to just keep moving and they are full of certainty that God is doing incredible things worthy of the waiting and walking.  so as they focus on the star, they push forward to find the king of kings.

christmas has been wonderful but easier to absorb after everyone’s been tucked in and the night is calm and and quiet and so am i.  mike has been stretching his travel ability and since he can handle about 4 hours maximum in the wheelchair we can head down for my family stuff in the south suburbs.  2 hours travel time and 2 hours for socializing on christmas eve.  and church on christmas morn.  presents and chaos and singing and some interesting christmas story retellings from a 3 year old’s perspective.  i loved being able to celebrate with family but making christmas happen does seem to take a lot of effort.  so i get worn and it does throw me to go from emotional extremes so quickly… i am so glad to be able to be together, mike healthy and travel able.  yet getting the three of them out the door on an icy morning for church brought out the devil in me.  (not to mention only a brief reprieve from kids being sick with fevers of 104 and highly interrupted sleep.)

so, yeah, late at night, brushing teeth, that’s when i imagine the wise men and the way they just kept going, not knowing what each day would bring, not knowing what the end looks like but the quiet of each night would replenish their hope by the light of the star.  so our days have been full of towering highs and ugly lows and the silent night reminds me of the grace of a savior come close  and the light he spreads to all our days.

merry late christmas and happy early new year!


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  • 1. Rachel E  |  December 27, 2008 at 10:26 pm

    Merry late Christmas and happy early new year to you as well! Michelle, as usual, I enjoyed reading your perspective on things. Thanks for continuing to share your journey with all us and allowing us to journey along with you.

  • 2. karin Rodriguez  |  December 27, 2008 at 11:52 pm

    Michelle, I love reading your blog. Your perspective is always so refreshing for me. Your words remind me to keep my eyes fixed on Christ!!! Thank you, and I think a Zegarski kid sleep over is needed soon! (Especially since we did not get them a present!)

    Love and God bless to all.

  • 3. Jerri Benjamin  |  December 28, 2008 at 9:35 am

    Michelle, I’ve been a silent partner through your blogging entries. I’ve read them all, including the comments, and check for new on a regular basis. Please know that through this time there have been prayers time and again, though not consistant, for you and your family. How selfish of me to only receive your words and not ever let you know how through this difficult time for you – you have been the blessing for me. You are a gift to so many. Please know that I am praying for you and your family. Your words in this recent entry remind me of a song by Amy Grant (yeah, she’s one of my favorites for Christmas listening – I know kind of dates me). It’s called “I Need A Silent Night”. The Chorus says:
    I need a silent night, a holy night
    To hear an angel voice through the chaos and the noise
    I need a midnight clear, a little peace right here
    To end this crazy day with a silent night.
    I thought it fit so well. I pray now Gods blessings to be poured out in abundance for you and yours and for many silent and holy nights. – Love, Jerri Benjamin

  • 4. Sarah Nixdorf  |  December 28, 2008 at 9:37 pm

    Sorry I haven’t been posting on your webpage because I have been doing CaringBridges post-it-notes, all the time. Sometimes, I feel like the wisemen too, finding Him and finding him. I feel like the Pharisees who said to Jesus’ Are you the Messiah.’ but just getting that part. But he was born to die so we might have rightness with God. Today’s sermon was on how Jesus healed the paralayed
    ? man which the pharisees did’nt take seriously because they’re
    thinking ‘He can forgive sins, who can forgive sin but God?’ They thought it was just a show.
    I thought about you during it, how God can heal even during the most trying of times.
    Your 3 yr. old does tell the retelling of christmas in a way for you to understand. For all of us to understand we sometimes need something to remind us.
    Keep on holding to the Promised One.
    The One who is not slow in coming.

  • 5. Lisa Krausfeldt  |  January 3, 2009 at 3:56 am

    Your last phrase – and the light he spreads to all our days really resonates with me. I have been thinking about suffering – and not just my own particular kind of suffering but those who suffer far, far more than I, like you – and especially Mike. And I want to share a couple of verses that have been on my mind. I Peter 5:10, 11 – “And the God of grace, who has called you into his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. To him be the power for ever and ever.”
    And Romans 8:5,6 “Those who live according the sinful nature, have their minds set on what that nature desires, but those who live according the Spirit, have their minds set on what the spirit desires. For the mind of the sinful man is death, but the mind controlled by the spirit is life and peace.”
    My mind continues to pray for Mike’s complete healing in God’s perfect timing. I pray that 2009 will bring you both joy and peace as you wait for his restoration.

  • 6. Sarah Nixdorf  |  January 5, 2009 at 10:10 pm

    Happy New Year. So glad that Mike is getting there.
    Let God work complete healing in Mike’s body, heart, mind, and all that. Recieved good news from my eye doctor today: Don’t mess with it til its an absolute need, so I get to hang on to the eye for a bit longer. Yaay. Anyway, hope Mike gets to more areas of healing
    and onto the path of walking. God can do anything, if its a eye,
    or walking problems etc.
    Have a new year in which the tables will start to turn for you and your family.
    Have a healthy 2009!!!!!!!!!!!
    To the Giver of Life all glory is Thine.
    R eye I mean.

  • 7. Heather Schmidt  |  January 14, 2009 at 10:58 pm

    Just wanted you guys to know that I am thinking of you and hoping you are staying warm! Really, do we live here? May God continue to give you strength and peace. May you continually rely on His as He is great Healer. May you feel His presence every moment of the day. Hopefully we will stop by soon. I know Aaron misses playing with Eli. Take care and God Bless!

    Love and prayers,

  • 8. Jennifer Knaak  |  January 23, 2009 at 4:57 pm

    I’m still traveling with you, my friend. 🙂 I loved your analogy of the wise men in this post. In fact, it was an encouragement to me today to keep walking, keep trusting. Thank you.

  • 9. Sarah Nixdorf  |  January 25, 2009 at 7:59 pm

    So sorry as i have been a bnusy bee with CaringBridge notes.
    Hope Mike continues to do better-saw him in Sunday School-he did great.

  • 10. karin Rodriguez  |  January 28, 2009 at 9:25 pm

    Hey just thinking about you all. I hope you are all staying warm and getting ready for Super Bowl!!! Maybe we will see you at the Parrish’s. I would love to see you all and I am sure Mckaela would love to see Joshua!!!

    I will call so we can get together. Just wanted you to know you are constantly thought about and prayed for, and of course LOVED.

    love ya all,

  • 11. emily bishop  |  February 1, 2009 at 10:15 pm

    Thinking of you a lot lately….Hope that January was a healthy one for all four of you. Your faith reminds me to continue to trust, and I am thankful for the witness you are….and your honesty about bad times.

    God bless you…and I know He does!


    Emily Bishop

  • 12. Beth Ann Hunter  |  February 3, 2009 at 3:46 pm

    Hey there Michelle, We have not forgotten about you, though it probably seems like it. Thank you again for all your updates, I realized now when I was reading back over months of updates how busy my life has been with our house move and suprise pregnancy! So I am so sorry for lack of communication. We will definitely continue to lift you up to Jesus, as I can only imagine how much strength He gives you to face each day. I don’t have to imagine the drain of two littles ones but do not understand all you face as you care for them virtually by yourself and care for Mike. God is definitely refining you in fire and truly are shining in an amazing way as you share your life with those of us who check in. Thank you for being so real and honest as always. In His care for YOU, Beth Ann and the rest of us Hunters

  • 13. Rachel E  |  February 4, 2009 at 10:34 pm

    Happy February to the Zegarski family! Just wanted to let you know that I’m thinking of you all and wishing you warmth, hope, happiness, and heartfelt-close-connections. Love, Rachel

  • 14. CAROL KLEIN  |  December 15, 2009 at 10:59 am



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